669小说网>人生没有太晚的开始的意思 > 第14章 学会接受（第2页）
第14章 学会接受（第2页）
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"annoyedhim；theywouldswimacrosshiseyesandcutoffhisvision。Yetwhenthelargestoftheseseckswouldswimacrosshissight，hewouldsay：
"Hello！TheresGrandfatheragain！Wonderwherehesgoingonthisfinemorning！
"
Howcouldfateeverconquerasiritlikethat？Theanswerisitcouldnt。Whentotalblindnessclosedin，Tarkingtonsaid：
"IfoundIcouldtakethelossofmyeyesight，justasamancantakeanythingelse。IfIlostallfiveofmysenses，IknowIcouldliveoninsidemymind。Foritisinthemindwesee，andinthemindwelive，whetherweknowitornot。
"
Inthehoeofrestoringhiseyesight，Tarkingtonhadtogothroughmorethantwelveoerationswithinoneyear。Withlocalanaesthetic！Didherailagainstthis？Heknewithadtobedone。Heknewhecouldntescaeit，sotheonlywaytolessenhissufferingwastotakeitwithgrace。Herefusedarivateroomatthehositalandwentintoaward，wherehecouldbewithothereolewhohadtroubles，too。Hetriedtocheerthemu。Andwhenhehadtosubmittoreeatedoerations—fullyconsciousofwhatwasbeingdonetohiseyes—hetriedtorememberhowfortunatehewas。
"Howwonderful！
"hesaid。
"Howwonderful，thatsciencenowhastheskilltooerateonanythingsodelicateasthehumaneye！
"
Theaveragemanwouldhavebeenanervouswreckifhehadhadtoenduremorethantwelveoerationsandblindness。YetTarkingtonsaid：
"Iwouldnotexchangethisexerienceforahaierone。
"Ittaughthimaccetance。Ittaughthimthatnothinglifecouldbringhimwasbeyondhisstrengthtoendure。Ittaughthim，asJohnMiltondiscovered，that
"Itisnotmiserabletobeblind，itisonlymiserablenottobeabletoendureblindness。
"
Ifwerailandkickagainstitandgrowbitter，wewontchangetheinevitable；butwewillchangeourselves。
IoncerefusedtoaccetaninevitablesituationwithwhichIwasconfronted。Ilayedthefoolandrailedagainstit，andrebelled。Iturnedmynightsintohellsofinsomnia。IbroughtuonmyselfeverythingIdidntwant。Finally，afterayearofself-torture，IhadtoaccetwhatIknewfromtheoutsetIcouldntossiblyalter。
IshouldhavecriedoutyearsagowitholdWaltWhitman：
Oh，toconfrontnight，storms，hunger，ridicule，accident，rebuffs，asthetreesandanimalsdo。
